20060428

i'm quite sure there'll never be a reason to smile again, never ever ever. as long as i'm in nanyang. think i should transfer to a ulu neighbourhood school. not a bad idea right.

i'm seriously considering quitting skating, just that it's a little wasted. i hate performing, on ice alone, and even for piano. yesterday was a good example, cos i was practically trembling, and all the notes were unclear. i think i was rushing too, good thing no one noticed.

history test sucked. really sucked. sucked. i'm SO GOING TO DROP HISTORY next year. the first thing i shall write in my application form for whatever thing is NO FREAKING HISTORY. ok i won't write it so crudely, but i will still write NO HISTORY in caps and really humongous. if i can that is.

i'm going to fail, i'm going to die i'm going to fail, i'm going to die i'm going to fail i'm going to die HISTORY SUCKS HISTORY SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS I'M OFFICIALLY DEAD.

for the time being. history has no logic, makes no sense, is irrelavant to anything in life, and is boring. geography rocks like crazy one thousand million times more.

NANYANG SUCKS. MY PARENTS SUCK, EVERYTHING IN LIFE SUCK

and in the first time in my life, i lost money today. and it's 10dollars. it'll last me a week, and i totally saved it from my pocketmoney this month. whoever took it, i so totally hate you forever. and if i ever find out, i'll definately complain. even if i DO get the money back.

BY THE WAY, IN FUTURE DO NO EVER EVER TAKE ANYTHING FROM ME TO TRICK ME/MAKE FUN OF ME, I'M SO GOING TO GET IRRITATED AND PISSED BECAUSE OF TODAY'S INCIDENT. I HOPE ANYONE (ESP FROM 209) WHO READS THIS KEEPS THIS IS MIND, BECAUSE I REALLY GOT SCOLDED LIKE CRAZY AND I'M DAMNED DAMNED PISSED.

today sucked, and i'm really starting to hate nanyang and everything in my life. today's the suckiest ever, even if i'm getting to sit with jan again next month.

I'M NEVER SMILING AGAIN
20060426

i think i'm going to flunk chinese. cause i practically did not have enough time. to make matters worse, when i was stuck at the first question of the second passage, dear janabel did too, so she was also rushing for time. then she started getting super agitated about it, and was breathing hard like crazy, grabbing correction tape and trembling. that made me super super nervous cos' i realised how much time i had left which was like 20mins for 5questions, and got a brain block.

wow, nice job janabel. haha. so i started trembling like crazy cos i was getting really really nervous and tried to breathe hard and slowly telling myself to calm down but, unfortunately it wasnt working. therefore i had not enough time for my last three questions and crapped something out. btw the handwriting sucks like crazy, cos i was scribbling like mad. esp the particular words "xiang shou". and my suoduanchangwen is all rubbish. and i just wrote "81 words" when i didnt even count. i mean, not my fault right, i didnt have a choice!

where is the old you, the one who cared for me, the one who was so innocent and thoughtful, who was almost perfect. why did you have to change? you knew i had a thing for you.

and zhiyang is really cute! i just realised it when he came to our school the other day, basically because he really looks much cuter in person than on pics in mags or tv.
20060421

damn my computer is like, spoilt cos my internet isn't working, and i have to resort to using my house's other computer which is a laptop and is so, not me.

plus the whole damned screen is like, so small and the font size and everything is so freaking small and i am not used to it. so anyway, that explains why i'm not going online for the whole week. besides the point that there's like so many common tests this week.

by the way, i would like to emphasize on the point that i hate those people who get their own freaking skates and this really short practice skirt even when they like, do not know how to skate and they actually think they are probably damned pretty and everything, that they can wear like that and pretend their pros just cos they are dancers. i mean, i saw this girl doing that and she like, can't skate at all. btw, she was wearing dancing stockings (you know those white ones) with her practice skirt cos apparently she doesnt have the stockings skaters wear.

i've been in this lousy mood almost the whole week so well, sorry if i've been acting really ridiculous and snappy towards you.

oh and i saw two of the guys in my english tuition from hwachong at the NY bus stop, and i saw both the first time in the year, and both in one week somemore. i doubt they saw me, or rather recognize me or something. i mean, not like i talk to them:D

oh crap, why is the damned phone in my parents' room beeping like crazy, it's so damned irritating.
20060414

hmm, let's just say someone saw me today and jingqin got so damned excited. crazy person. junice and jingqin were like dying to see how that person looks like and i was like, feeling so embarrassed! haha okay nevermind.

it's just a big coincidental thing. but eight below was really nice. i loved those dogs! i think four of us like, picked the wrong place to be at. so many people were in the same cinema can!

the good part is that i love taking neoprints! ok fine i'm feeling really tired now. i'm not blogging anymore. btw nanyang sucks and i don't know why the freaking fuji ice palace needs the school stamp to complete the competition form. i mean, not like i WANT to represent you stupid nanyang. why must the freaking teachers be so arrogant? you think i want to represent you all arh! crazy retards.

lousy lousy stuff.